Learning to let go and trust...

I am in a constant process of that! It's not so easy. The year of 2006 was a year of constant emotional stress. I was on an emotional roller coaster and I've learned how important it is to guard my heart. I didn't seem to know how to, but I learned the hard way and I am pretty sure I will do better at it from now on. I heard this song today and it described how I've been feeling for a lot of the year of 2006. I hope this year is more promising and that I will have learned my lesson when it comes to trusting God and not taking matters into my own hands.

Let It Down

I’ve been looking till my eyes are tired of looking
Listening till my ears are numb from listening
Praying till my knees are sore from kneeling
On the bedroom floor

I know that You know that my heart is aching
I’m running out of tears and my will is breaking
I don’t think that I can carry
The burden of it anymore

All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are slowly slipping through my folded hands

So I’m gonna lay it down
I’m gonna learn to trust You now
What else can I do
Everything I am depends on You
And if the sun don’t come back up
I know Your love will be enough
I’m gonna let it be, I’m gonna let it go
I’m gonna lay it down

I’ve been walking through this world like I’m barely living
Buried in the doubt of this hole I’ve been digging
But You’re pulling me out and I’m finally breathing
In the open air

This room may be dark but I’m finally seeing
There’s a new ray of hope and now I’m believing
That the past is the past and the future’s beginning
To look brighter now

Cause all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are safe and secure and I place them in Your hands

So I’m gonna lay it down
I’m gonna learn to trust You now
What else can I do
Everything I am depends on You
And if the sun don’t come back up
I know Your love will be enough
I’m gonna let it be, I’m gonna let it go
I’m gonna lay it down

So my head is up and I'm looking towards a future that's unknown to me, but perfectly planned by God. All I have to do is trust and follow. What's past is past and I am not going to let it wear me down anymore. I lay my burdens at the feet of Jesus and I am going into this year with anticipation of what God is going to teach me next, what He'll bring across my path :)